Me? Start a Blog?

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAIf you had told me 9 weeks ago that I would start a blog, I wouldn’t have believed you. As I sat curled up in the front seat of our silver Taurus with a tear-stained face and swollen eyes, I scoured the internet for information about miscarriage and stillbirth. Having just left my OBGYN’s office, the second ultrasound had confirmed what our doctor had seen the day before: no life in our baby. The last thing on my mind was sharing anything with the world.  All I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and block out everything.

It’s shocking how quickly life can change, isn’t it? One day, everything is perfect and life is good. The next, something happens that leaves you reeling, overwhelmed with grief, and searching for answers.

Well, that brings me to why I am here.  Blogging.  Something I never had interest in before.

My life has changed. The excruciating experience of losing my precious 2nd daughter has changed me.

It has deposited in me treasures formed through horrific pain: new perspectives, deep trust, and brokenness before my God.

It has awakened me to the immense pain being felt by moms all around who have experienced or are experiencing their own loss.

It has also ignited a desire in me to see my little daughter’s life count. To know that she made an impact, she touched a life.

THESE are the reasons I am here.

Although I tend to be a fairly personal, private person about my deepest feelings and experiences, I have decided to write about our new life.

Here is what you can expect to find as we go:

  • Some transparent insights of my journey
  • Encouragement to the eternal hope of heaven
  • Reflections on how to support someone going through loss
  • Memories and tributes to my baby girl Esther

And who knows what else….cause life changes!

Want to join me?





  1. I’m here to join! So proud to see you finding joy in the morning and to see you sharing hope from the pain.

  2. I’m so glad and proud to see you take such a hard situation and use it for good. Thank you for being willing to share to help others. I can really see God giving you a new purpose in this and I’m looking forward to reading more!

  3. Lisa Vail-Rebelsky says:

    So proud of you and Adam! God will use your willing hearts for His Glory! I’ve been there, it’s hard and so lonely. My Darcey is in heaven too. God will use your Esther’s life to touch and heal many.

  4. Pam Reuscher says:

    Once again God is changing ashes into beauty. Thanks for being the special person you are.

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