The Hands Sustaining Me

serving-handsThe following is an excerpt from my spiritual journal…

March 29, 2013

Waking from a nap with a start, I am disoriented once again, and shaking physically.  I thought from being cold, but probably from the disturbing dreams again. My body feels like lead as I get up and go to pick up Kyla from her crib in the other room.  As I go to feed her lunch my thoughts are interrupted by a word.

Sustain.

It comes to me as my soul feels like it is giving way and my mind is exhausted.

I felt impressed to do a Bible study on the word.  I wanted to find a verse to meditate on where God is described as the sustainer. This is the first one that jumped out:

Psalm 3:5 I lay down and slept; I awoke for the Lord sustains me.

Wow, I know that God is speaking directly to me.  He is sustaining me.  When I wake up to the sudden jar of pain, loss, and emptiness once again, He sustains me.  When the nightmares aren’t even as bad as my reality, He sustains me.  When the loneliness tries to overtake me each morning and evening, He sustains me. When my heart feels as though it will give way in this journey, He sustains me.  When the tears flow freely and hope seems far away, He sustains me. Our God is a sustainer. My God is a sustainer.

I then looked up the dictionary definition for the word and was encouraged further…

SUSTAIN:

  1. To support, hold, or bear up from below; bear the weight of, as a structure.
  2.  To bear (a burden, charge, etc.)
  3. To undergo, experience, or suffer (injury, loss, etc.); endure without giving way or yielding

I am being supported and held up from below, HE is causing me to endure without giving way.

And you know what? The same hands that are sustaining me right now are also holding my baby Esther.

What about you? Maybe you are walking through a loss beyond words. Maybe you feel like giving up. I invite you…I challenge you, run to Him. He can and He will sustain you.

 

Comments

  1. Adam Waller says:

    Very powerful insight and revelation!
    Thank you for sharing, I love it!

  2. Lisa Vail-Rebelsky says:

    Great Blog! I was meditation on the same word this week….Thanks for adding to my understanding.

  3. Dana Carr says:

    Kalyn and Lisa, thank you for helping me. I met Lisa at ATF Dallas, and when she asked if any where in crisis, I said ‘yes’ even though I know God has promised to save my whole household. When I got home, my father-in-law whom I care for got sick, went to the hospital, and now is back home accompanied by Hospice.
    My two boys here are 12 and 14 and my husband is crippled so our atmosphere is crazy but wonderful. When you said the same loving hands of Jesus sustaining you are the same hands holding your daughter, I realized this is true of “Papa” who is in the next room looking ahead to Glory. I want so much to rely on God every step of this process and not give into temptation of emotional traps. The both of you are like heroes to me because you have chosen the path of Good Courage and He has made you strong….Love, Light and Rest to you and your families………………..Dana in Canton

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