About Me

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAHi! My name is Kalyn and I am a wife, mom, and follower of Jesus. I am married to an amazing man who shares my dreams and passions, and walks through both the joys and sorrows of this life with me. We have two daughters: one here on earth and one in heaven. After losing our second daughter to an umbilical cord accident at 16 weeks, we were left with only one little girl in our arms and two broken hearts. We have walked together through the raw human pain, unanswered questions, and ups and downs of losing a precious child. Yet through this experience we have been deeply changed, gained a profound eternal perspective, and learned how to rely on our Jesus like never before.

I have started this blog with three purposes. First, as a creative expression of my own journey through grief. Second, to relate and connect with other moms who have experienced the loss of a baby. Third, to give insight to family and friends of those who are experiencing the terrible pain of loss.

So, I invite you on my journey. This crazy journey of pain and healing. Despair and hope. Loss and restoration. Memories and dreams.  Regardless of the difficult seasons along the way, I know the end of the story. I will hold my baby girl again. Until then, I will keep running this race of life with the hope of heaven in my heart.

Meet my Family:




My adventurous, fun loving husband, who is the love of my life. A wonderful father, Adam is caring and sensitive, yet strong and protective. I am so blessed to be walking through life beside him.






My sweet 20 month old who is always full of life!  Very affectionate yet strongly opinionated, she lives her little life with purpose! She loves everything that has to do with babies (she “mothers” her dolls by the hour!) and likes to sit and “read” her books outloud.  Every day is something new with our “baby K”, and we are so very blessed to have her as our first daughter.



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Our precious second born daughter who we lost at 16 weeks gestation due to a cord accident. Although I will never get to hold her tiny hand here, I long for the day it will reach out to me in heaven. We are so glad that we were picked to be her mommy and daddy, and we cherish every day we had her. She has forever changed our family.  Anything good I write is inspired by my sweet Esther.


  1. I’m so sorry about ur loss. I lost a baby 2 @ 7 wks of gestation exactly 11 months ago to this day. I’ve alway longed to have more than 2 kid but never actually planned it & now I wonder if that was my chance God’s plan for me 2 have my 3rd child in heaven. I’m the proud mother of two Great teens) & since I’m almost 43 yrs old I think I should b happy w/ the two blessings God has already given m e .However, I’m not for some reason I’m still longing to hold an infant in my arms. I’m praying t God to take this longing away if its not in His plan, cause I don’t want to b selfish.

    . Its so true, the experiences we live influence our point of view. May God continue to bless U!!!

    • Kalyn from Mommy's Heavenly Dream says:


      So sorry for your loss. I pray that God gives you strength…

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