February. Need I say more? Probably. But in my mind, that one word says it all. Even after two years the word February invokes strong emotions in the private world of my own heart. I have been mostly absent from the world of blogging lately, as I soak up the snuggles, giggles, and delights of […]

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Merry Christmas Esther!


Dear Esther, It’s hard to believe today is your second Christmas in heaven. It seems like you were just here. I guess that is because you are always in my mind and on my heart. A lot has changed this year. We have grown and learned how to live more like Jesus. We have healed […]

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Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

jesus holding baby

October 15 is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. Today I am remembering my sweet girl, Esther, who touched my life so deeply. Though we had her for such a short time, our love for her continues. I will ever be thankful for the tiny life that changed our family forever… Dear Esther, We love […]

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Elijah’s Kidneys – A GOOD Report!


Last Wednesday, we took Elijah to the St. Louis Children’s hospital for follow up on the kidney problem detected in pregnancy. Ever since we were referred to a specialist at 26 weeks, it has been suggested that only the left kidney is healthy and functioning, with the right kidney missing from where it should be. […]

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The Arrival of our Miracle: Elijah Amos!


Our miracle baby Elijah Amos has arrived! Words simply cannot express our joy, thankfulness, and awe. I wanted to share just a snippet about his arrival before I go back into my little cocoon of just gazing at my baby’s face. I can’t believe it’s already been 2 weeks… Monday, August 25, 2014 is a […]

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My Experience With Pregnancy After Loss – A Reflection on the Last 8 months


Lately it has been much harder than normal to sit down and organize my thoughts into a blog post. I can hardly believe we are in the final stretch of this pregnancy. The last 8 months have seemed like a blur in many ways. I have had so many things running through my heart, and […]

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2 Due Dates – 1 Birthday

Waller Family Heart

The last days of July hold special significance in our home. This is when we remember two baby due dates, but only celebrate one birthday. What a bittersweet time. Kyla’s due date was July 30 and she was born on July 21, 2011. Esther’s due date was July 28, but she went to heaven on […]

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31 Weeks! An update on “London Baby”


We are getting so close to finally meeting our little baby #3! We just passed the 31 week mark and we are counting down the days until we bring this baby home in our arms! Yesterday we had an eventful day of follow up appointments at our specialist’s office. After our car broke down 2 […]

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An Update and a Prayer Request for Baby


Wow, it’s been a long time since I have posted! The last month has been interesting, busy, and challenging. The reality of a new baby coming soon has finally set in. I have been relishing the punches, kicks, and rolls of this little one. I have also been praying, standing, believing, and persevering through some […]

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22 Weeks! A Pregnancy Update


I know I am overdue for a pregnancy update! I have sat down to write one so many times, and for some reason, the words have just not come out right. The odd mix of excitement, anxiety, joy, grief, and anticipation that have characterized this pregnancy sometimes do not help me produce the best blog […]

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